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Interview with Kirsty Richards
Kirsty Richards talks candidly about her struggles with anxiety, "the yips" and the
changes she believes bowls must make to survive.
Winning a national singles title is a dream come true for any bowler, but for Kirsty Richards the achievement was even more impressive considering just the week before lifting the trophy, she had seriously considered giving up bowls.
Back in 2017, the Warwickshire player had to pull on every ounce of
mental strength she possessed after struggling all season with the
'yips'- a term used to describe involuntary twitches, staggers and
jerks during delivery. "I don't think I will ever fully know why
it came about, I think different people are given different things
throughout their lives to test them, and this was clearly one of
mine,” she said. “I used to have selective mutism when I was
younger (a severe anxiety disorder where a person is unable to speak
in certain social situations) and struggled with it for quite a few
years, so can only think it was potentially a combination of the
after-effects of that and the pressure I started to put on myself to
get the perfect bowl. “When it is at its worse it is horrific,
and as dramatic as it sounds the only way I can describe it is like
feeling you are going to have a heart attack every time you go to
bowl.
“For those who have never experienced the yips, it can be
related to a panic attack. But imagine this panic attack every time
you go to bowl, and so when you can't release the bowl, it results
in another panic attack, and so every new attempt is a new attack
and you can't stop it until your brain finally allows you to let go
of the bowl. “The week before winning the Bowls England National
Women's Singles I was playing in the u25 singles quarter final. My
yips were the worst they had ever been, it was even to the point
where mentally I couldn't even simply walk on to the mat. It is an
odd concept to a lot of people but essentially my brain just
wouldn't let me physically deliver the bowl! “There were a lot
of spectators that day and I remember how humiliated I felt, I came
off very upset and remember saying to my parents I was going to pull
out of the singles as I didn't want to go through the trauma again.”
Once she got home however, with the help of her parents Kirsty found
an 'EFT therapist' which trains people to control anxiety with
tapping techniques. Kirsty recalled: “It definitely helped
distract me and reinstate positive thoughts. I combined this with
meditation in between each round, and although my yips were still
there, it just enabled me to carry on and manage it. “I didn't
think I would be able to get through to singles event, and to
actually go all the way and win it was incredible and really proved
to myself how mentally strong I was. Winners never quit and quitters
never win as they say....”
Kirsty
says that although she still has the odd blip, she has reached a
stage where she feels in control. “My biggest coping mechanism
now is to not focus on others,” she added. “I used to have such a
pressure to deliver the bowl because I was scared as to how others
may perceive me and would get thoughts in my head about people
finding it funny which would only make me worse, but I have learnt
now I can only control myself and I can't control other people.
“Most people have been supportive of me and I am so thankful of
that. I also try to have as many roll ups as I can - when I am
confident in my ability I find I am much more in control of my
delivery as it stops any self-doubt coming into my mind. Listening
to meditation before important games also really helps, it really
relaxes me, and I find the more relaxed I am the less chance I will
have issues with my delivery.”
Something is working as Kirsty
was crowned British Isles women's pairs champion this year along
with partner Amy Walters, who she describes as “the most laid-back
person and incredible player”. She said: “If anyone is going
through the yips or similar, you will get a lot of people try to
give you advice (all from a good place), and you may get many people
try to tell you to change your stance on the mat or the way you
deliver a bowl which can become quiet overwhelming.
“The yips is
anxiety driven so try not to change too much physically, all you can
do is try to relax yourself as much as possible and be as confident
as possible. “For confidence I recommend practice, it just
reinstates positivity, so that when you are in a game situation you
can visualise that time when you had a roll up when you got four
round the jack, and know that you can do the same again! “I also
recommend playing with supportive teammates. I feel really lucky in
that I know if I was to have a yips episode come on, that my team
would never judge me and be nothing but supportive and patient.
However, in the past my own team members have got frustrated. This
isn't helpful and so it is important to get out of those set ups.
“Bottomline though, stick at it! It is a testament to your own
character and will make you stronger in the long run.
“The whole
thing took a massive strain on me mentally and is definitely the
hardest thing I have had to go through. Sadly unless you have been
through it, or something similar it is really easy to sit on the
side lines and judge and not understand how such a simple task of
delivering a bowl can be so difficult, but all I would ask is if
anyone comes across a player with the yips of any form, please try
to be respectful and try to empathise as much as you can.”
Kirsty, a chartered accountant, and her twin brother were introduced
to the game at the age of seven by bowls royalty, the late great
David Bryant MBE. “My parents had a caravan in Skegness so we
used to go down for a couple weeks in the school holidays,” she
said. “One summer there was a big open day to give bowls a go and
we happened to get David Bryant to coach us (not that we knew who
how iconic he was at the time, given we were a family of
non-bowlers!) “Once we were home my brother spotted a poster
advertising junior bowls sessions at City of Birmingham Indoor Bowls
Club. “The club had a junior singles and pairs league after
school every Tuesday. I loved it, not just bowls itself with it
being so skilful, but also meeting others my age that played it too,
back then we had about 35 juniors between the ages of seven and 18
show up every session.”
Kirsty's first real taste of success
came at the age of 13 when she reached the Bowls England National
Junior Singles title, losing to Natalie Chestney. She played in
her first junior indoor international series the same year and two
years later was picked for the junior team outdoors. After years
of enjoyment from the game, the chartered accountant believes that
resistance to change has prevented making bowls more attractive for
younger players. Kirsty added: “The clothing also needs
addressing, we have come a long way but are still quite far behind
the Aussies for example. Some counties have been great in
implementing new sports kits, but sadly there are still quite a few
counties that still insist on showing up to games in specified
coloured shoes and matching handbags. This is enough to put younger
players off bowling and is such a simple fix. “Indoor bowls can
also lack atmosphere and can be so quiet you can hear a penny drop
at times. I think it would be good for more clubs to play background
music. This has been introduced at the nationals in the last couple
years, but I think it would be beneficial to just be able to walk
into any club and that 'cold silence' be taken away.
“Generally,
I think there needs to be a big push to get more women into bowls,
in particular those under the age of 25. Although I like the current
formats, with indoors being a naturally longer game, I think the
only way to attract more is to reduce the length of games so that it
is more manageable.”
Kirsty fully intends to be playing for many
years to come and has set herself an ultimate goal. She said: “I
want to win the national singles again, without the yips as I feel
like it did ruin my experience slightly as there was a lot of pain
to get there. Then if I was to be lucky enough to do that, I would
love to win the World Champion of Champions. It would be amazing to
give that another go as it was an incredible opportunity to play
against some of the greatest players in the world.”
Sian Honnor
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